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its a beautiful gray freezin gross day today. when i walked into 3rd period, it was SOOO freakin cold. but yeah funny story. today we had a sub in 3rd, and we were suppose to be doin this essay assignment. we were aloud to go to the library, so me, megan, amy, melissa, and julian got a pass, and decided to go to Wendys instead. we got in amys car, and headed there. as we pulled into the wendys parking lot, i tell amy that i hear something wrong with her car. so we all get out, and we see that shes got a REALLY flat tire. like down to the rim. it was scary lookin. so amy looks at us, and says, "we cant be here. i can NOT have a flat in wendys parking lot during 3rd period. we need to go back" so we get back in the car and go back. we were drivin at like 5 miles an hour. haha. we get there, and amy calls her mom. she gets the situation figured out and we head back towards the class, cuz we never really wanted to go to the library n e ways. as soon as we get to the classroom door, theres like 15 people working in the hall. so megan and i are like, 'shoot, lets work out here...'. so we do. i sit down, and megan goes to the bathroom. she turns the corner, and i hear her talkin to someone. then, i see my mom come around the corner. i thought for sure i was caught. she hands me an envelope, and says "have a good day bunny!" (;-) thats what she calls me, tee hee) i open it, and its lunch money. i forgot to grab some. so THANK GOD amy got a flat, or i woulda been skipping when my mom showed up. EVERYTHING happens for a reason. creepy huh? yeah last night was kinda fun. me, jeff n chris went to bellevue square mall, to do some christmas shopping. chris got all his done, and jeff got some done. i didnt have my checks cashed, so i didnt get n e thing. but as we passed, i saw the "Build-A-Bear Workshop". the store looked so adorable, i had to walk in. turns out you BUILD your OWN BEAR. OMG im so excited. chris says that hes gunna take me there after christmas and buy me one. im so happy! they were so cute, and you get to give them names and birth certificates, and EVERYTHING. i think everyone should own one. yay. i cant wait. thats what im lookin forward too! hehe. but yeah, im at my moms work right now. and im hella tired. i wanna lay down right here. i think when i get done with this, imma put my head down on the desk n sleep. i didnt get to sleep till 2 last night, and when i woke up, i was sooooo NOT tired. its all hittin me now tho. so, imma go. i will update soon!
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im so tired! i had to wake up at like 9 something to go to work, and i jus got home now. it doesnt add up, but i only got 3 hours in. thats 30 bucks. wow. i need more money guys. im broke. how am i suppose to get gifts? gawd. oh well, ill think of something. i allready know what im gettin my mom, joe, and chris. i dont know about n e one else. i think were suppose to draw names for secret santa. that should be fun. hehe. but yeah, last night i was suppose to go out and go to a party n a show n everything, but NO. my mom went "7th heaven" on my ass, and we had a "fun" night. my mom, her boyfrend joe, chris and i went out to dinner then we went bowling. yay. it was kinda fun. of course i started doing good at bowling with like 10 mins left in our lil game. i was like second to last place. chris beat my ass. that made me mad. next time ill demolish him. but yeah for the rest of the day today im painting the office room here at chris's house while hes at work, and then im going to sleep. if my mom lets me. knowing her shell make me clean my room after that. tomorrow, im jus gunna stay home i think. this was like the gayest weekend ever. my mom shouldve let me go out. she didnt last weekend either. faggot ass shit. i jus noticed how many homosexual comments i jus made. sorry if i offend n e one :-D. but yeah i should go before i go to sleep right here. i will be on later maybe. if im not too busy.
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who knows if you read this shit n e more. but what im gunna say, is that your low. your prolly the lowest person i know. the relationship we had over a year ago was fantastic.. the best i have ever had. but you... yourself, in general.. are the most selfish, attention needy, asshole ive ever met. you left me there alone. by myself. what the fuck is wrong with you? its not that it was to go see her, cuz i understand that you like her a lot... but that you had the nerve to actually leave, me alone. to actually fucking leave me there. you have some nerve. would you leave n e other frends by themselves? doubtful. im tired of being walked on. this is done. i dont wanna be the frend you wanna have when your alone. thats fucked up.
the best part of this whole situation is that im going to find a frend to fill your place, that wont walk all over me. they will be there for me when i need someone to talk to, they will spend quality time with me... and i wont have to deal with people that wont treat me how i deserve. you know for a fact that i dont deserve the way you treated me. u know it.
this is jus like a symbol of how you always treat me now. you dont care for our frendship. so we wont have one.
ill give back what you gave me:
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so yeah today was fun. kinda slow, but fun. im glad its thursday, that means that friday is tomorrow, and that the OC is on tonight! yay. tomorrow me n the gurls are gunna dress nice, jus becuz. no reason really. then were goin to bell square after school, then the game at fhs, and then were goin to dinner. after dinner we will head out to my house n have a small lil something. i dont know what tho. i dont want too many people over, cuz when theres a lot of people over, the cops get called, and we are NOT doing that again (knocks on wood). then on saturday, we will be leaving my house kinda early, and goin downtown seattle to have an all day shopping thingy. i love downtown seattle, and i havent been shoppin there for an all day thing since before school, so its time. im not really looking for myself, im more looking for the people im buying gifts for. i dont have much money, so im jus gunna buy for family, haha. if i had more money i would buy for my frends too, but i jus got this job, and i havent gotten many hours. speaking of which, i gotta get my license, lol... i know i know its taking me forever, and when i get it, i can get as many hours as possible, and gets LOTS O MONEY! then with lots of money i can buy things for people. yay. the best part of having money for me, is that i like to spend it on other people, n not make me broke. i love that. cuz i like to make other people happy, but i also like havin money. N E WAYS. megan was telling me about this show on december 10th with HELLA good bands in kirkland. i wanna go to that. it would be hella dope... yo. for shizzle my dizzle bizzle. but yeah, imma go change up the colors, im sick of these. i think imma gunna do this LJ according to my shoes. cuz i got black shoes, with BRIGHT NEON GREEN laces. and i think that would be cool LJ colors. im thinkin about gettin a myspace as well as having this LJ, but i know i wont update as much as i do here. i can hardly manage this one! haha.
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isnt it true that when someones in pain, they try to relieve themselves of it? i think so. so why do i look around at all sorts of people being in pain, and not doin n e thing about it?
for instance..
i know someone who hates how their living.. he hates how their dad treats them, and he hates that his dads gf is a bitch. he hates how his chick frend always bitches at him to do something with his life, and quit complainin to everyone. WHY doesnt he look at himself, and realize that since hes 18, he can get the hell out of this house thats sooooo horrible, and live on his own..without n e one bitching at him?
another example..
i know someone who was about to kill themself becuz he cant take the pain of being in love alone. why doesnt he look at the situation and understand that its the selfish way out? him of all people should understand that, given the circumstances hes been in durin his life. he feels that the pain is too much to go on. frends have explained to him that its hard, but he doesnt wanna see that it will be over sometime.
the thing that pisses me off the most is that the chick is a bitch about it. i can understand that if you dont wanna be with someone for whatever reason, you should let them go. why has this chick NOT LET HIM GO. she jus dangles him along, with ease. she doesnt look at his feelings and understand that hes in pain. now if you dont like him... cut him off completely... if you love him, then be with him. none of this in the middle shit.
n e one thats been in the middle knows that its a bitch to get out of. when you feel like someone MAY have feelings for you, you wanna hold on.
i think he needs to open his eyes and see that shes jus on a power trip, and he needs to let the bitch go. hes too good for her.
she wants to be the puppeteer and watch her lil puppets dance.
well getover yourself bitch, what your doing is wrong.
he might think that "love" is the reason, but the only way he can stop the pain is cut her off. find someone who will treat him better..
well lets say that he feels that if he lets her go, that she still loves him, and will jus think "well he doesnt love me, so forget it..." well it doesnt work that way. if he were to cut her off, and she honestly felt that shes missin out on something, she WILL be back. shell realize that you have respect for yourself enough to keep yourself from being in this pain.
if its meant to be, it will be. promise.
ok, im done, i jus hope that what i said helps whoever reads it...
lol i feel like "ask the editor"or some shit.
a.m dizzle
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i know i suck at updating, but deal with it. not like n e one reads this n e way. haha. anyways, im at my moms work, its like 315. im waitin for chris to get on so we can talk.. cuz im bored outta my freakin mind. speaking of him... last night him and i were eating blimpies.. sub sammiches... and were listening to my mom and joe fight. it was bad, she was getting pissed. i guess she found a phone bill, n its got this one chicks number, hella times on there, at weird hours. and i dunno.. it sounded like my mom wasnt LOOKING for something like that, she jus stumbled upon it or something, and glanced at it. saw the same number a bunch of times. and this is his personal celly too. i guess, i dunno.. chris and i couldnt hear everything. but yeah i guess the lady lives in oregon, and he went over there when my mom and him were jus starting out dating or something. i dunno. she was like "who the fuck is this?? why did you hide this shit from me? you shoulda said something to me if it wasnt a big deal" and all this crap. it was funny tho, cuz joe was gettin mad too. he was tellin her that she needs to trust him more. and my moms like "how am i suppose to trust you if you hide stuff from me?" lol she was also sayin that the lady called at like 640 in the morning, to wish joe a "HAPPY FRIDAY". lol i dont know. joe says shes an associate of his. i dont know what to think of it, but i know that with joes lil blazer thing, thats really old and beat up, hes not gunna go all the way to oregon everytime he wants an affair. you know? that would be so much gas, and at the prices of today, thats kinda gay. but i mean, whatever. not my deal. this morning when we were gettin in the car to come to school, eli, my dog, was outside barking at people while we were pulling out. and my mom stops the car, and picks up her phone thats ringin. she looks at it, answers, then tells joe to hold on. then she tells me to go put the dog inside, so he doesnt follow us. i go put him away, and come back, and shes crying. i didnt hear n e thing they were talking about, so i was like, meh, we got time to spare.. and i told her i was going back inside to use the potty, and she was okay. i go inside, pee, and tell chris bye again and stuff. when i get back out there, shes off the phone, and were on our way to tukwila. a few mins into the drive she goes "he called me to apologize about last night and the numbers i found... why did he wait?" and she was really mad about it. so i tell her about the fact that if he jus apologized RIGHT when she found the numbers, it wouldnt be a sincere apology, it would jus be an apology so he doesnt get in trouble, or make her cry. and since he had to sleep on it, n think about it, he more likely meant it. and she took it the right way, she told me i had a good point. so im hoping that shes doin better. cuz it would be a ton of shit if they broke up right now... i jus got my northbend room all nice n stuff... i wouldnt wanna have to move back in with my mom in covington.
on a brighter note...
i went to idaho over the 4day weekend. it was really cool. i went with missy, and we jus partied the whole time. i had a LOT of fun stayin sober. ;-) u know u know. but really, i did... on sat. i watched everyone there get drunk. it was funny. there was this guy there, and he was really cute. but he was mormon.... a lil church boy.. so that doesnt work. i mean its hott that he cares about his religion, but number one, it isnt MY religion, and number two.. he says he doesnt even masterbate.. so i DOUBT we would have n e fun. haha. but i got to meet all of missys family, and their really cool. only bad part was that on friday i lost my wallet.. with 30 bucks in it, my moms credit card, my debit card, and all my social security, insurence card, etc. and my really bomb ass ID pic. damn it. it sucked. its all good cuz imma senior. thats my reason for everyhing... run across the road cuz imma senior... go talk to that person cuz imma senior... take a shot cuz imma senior...etc etc.
then this saturday, chris, my mom, joe and i are goin to arizona. im so excited. i want a tan in the middle of winter, so it better be hott n stuff there. imma spend AS MUCH TIME AS POSSIBLE in the sun. and imma take lots of pics of the desert for my meggy poo cuz she loves it there. i wish i could take her, but i cant :-( sorry toots. were goin to AZ to see my g-ma n pa, thats where they vacation. so were gunna go there for thanxgivin. im ready for it dood! imma buy clothes. we were also goin to mexico, but its like a 5 hour drive. but we will be at the grand canyon. we leave saturday the 20, and come back the 26th, a friday. that also gives my 2 days to do my laundry. i kinda wish i had some more time then that at home after AZ, cuz that would be awesome. cant you tell i jus wanna be outta school?!?
i feel kinda bad tho, cuz i told some people that i wanted to chill on friday, cuz i didnt get to last weekend (being in ID) and now i cant. i kinda forgot about when i was goin to arizona. but its all good. ill be able to kick it NEXT weekend. haha. they wont miss me too much. hehe. but yeah imma go now. im kinda bored of this, and i wanna mess around with the colors on this thingy. so yeah, ill write laters. prolly tmw or the next day depending on what i do when i get outa skoo. hehe, skoo.
a.m dizzle
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"DOES IT HURT WHEN YOU THINK OF ME, AND HOW BROKEN MY HEART IS?" yellowcard
um no. i dont. i dont give a shit about you. infact, ive had my eye on someone else this entire time, and i havent thought of you like that in... oh about... 3 and a half MILLION YEARS. so get over me, and get over YOUR FUCKING SELF. i dont love you. and wont... never have, never will. you my frend, are in the past. me.. you... never... again. i say g'day.
GOOD DAY!
I SAY GOOD DAY!
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Matchbox Romance- Promise what would you say if i asked you not to go to forget everyone, forget everything and start over with me would you take my hand and never let me go promise me you'll never let me go and the stars aren't out tonight, but neither are we to look up at them why does hello feel like goodbye? these memories can't replace, these wishes i wished and these dreams i chased take this broken heart and make it right i feel like i've lost everything when you're gone left remembering what it's like to have you here with me i thought you should know, you're not making this easy i never thought i'd be the one to say please don't, well please don't leave me i feel like i've lost everything when you're gone left remembering what it's like to have you here with me i thought you should know, you're not making this easy you're not making this easy... (easy, easy, easy...) take my hand and never let me go, take my hand and never let me go, promise me... you'll never let go you'll never let go you'll never let go you'll never let go make this last forever i feel like i've lost everything when you're gone left remembering what it's like to have you here with me i thought you should know, you're not making this easy you're not making this easy you're not making this easy you're not making this easy you're not making this easy i'll fall asleep tonight, cause that brings me closer to you
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--Top 5 favorate movies--
5: (no order) grease
4: dirty dancing
3: butterfly effect
2: cruel intentions
1: alice in wonderland
--Love--
The most romantic place possible: under the stars
Ever dug someone, when you knew you should give up:......STORY OF MY LIFE.
Do you like someone now: hehe
Who: starts with a C and ends with HARLOTTE i mean, ugh. no one.
Where did you meet them (if you don't have someone, where would you want to meet them): baseball rocks.
Who is your sexiest friend: the opposite of wrangler jeans. if you know me, you know who im talkin about... awwlllriiighhht.
What's your idea of a good first date: baseball game. or, goin to the park or sumthin at night time.
What did you do for your first date: movies. whos ISNT the movies. haha.
Ever tried to kiss someone, when they didn't want to be kissed: nope, been kissed when i didnt want it. hehe.
Has anyone done that to you: i jus said that. goodness, pay attention.
How many girlfriends/boyfriends have you had: 7ish
Are you with someone now: thats about as obvious as the sky being blue. everyone knows that answer.
How is that going for you two: n/a
What defines "cheating": more then a hug between my him and whoever it is. or.. even... if its an action he wouldnt make if i were standing there with him and the other person. you know.
--Life--
What is your job: n/a
Saving up for anything: a snowboard and a car. woot.
What do you spend most of your free time doing: read. puter. sleep. talk. shop. etc.
What would you rather be spending your time on: sleep
Got any hobbies: yes i doooo.
Is money a problom for you: having too much? or not having enough? THATS the ?Q?
What career do you have/want: lawyer. dontcha know. (bobbys world mommy)
Going to/want to go to college: duh.
What kind of car do you drive: :-(
What kind of car do you want to drive: a toyota. or a lil civic. dont really car. point A to point B is all that matters.
Are you an activist: chicken?
For what: dinner.
Would you ever kill someone: ...(thinking)naw, prolly not on purpose.
--Favorite--
Song: no fave. i love musica.
Place: under stars.
Sound: emo music.
Taste: chicken.
TV show: family guy, futurama, sbsp, aqua teen, n e thing adult swimy.
Clothing article: n e thing pjish.
Actor: someone funny... or good looking. shit, both.
Book: speak or cut.
Color: black/pink/white.
Smell: i like my smell. or my mommys smell. or mmmm coffee.
Town: seaside
Era: the best one ever... 80s.
Food: CHICKEN, or pastas, or n e thing potato related.
Day: june 10th, and august 29th. and july 4th (hmm charlotte... good times, great oldies.. 97.3... kbsg.)
Band: daphne loves derby is up there... same with DC, and i really like matchbox romance from what ive heard so far. but as you can see... there isnt a FAVE, so. yeah. chicken.
--Name 5 of your best friends--
5:(no order)megan
4:anna
3:ally
2:char
1:missy
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i never continued. oh well. n e ways, i jus got outta school. i had fun in PE, we were playin field hockey. its cool stuff dood. last night me chris my mom n joe went out for mexican. it was nummy. there was an awesome lunar eclipse too. it was so pretty. me n chris wanted to take pics, but no cam. oh well, sometime i wanna get one of those telescopes that can take pics of the stars n stuff up close. that would be so pretty. oh yeah! jus under 2 weeks till missy n i go to idaho. im excited. she was so excited when we were on our way to portland the other day, omg... i cant wait to see how shell be on our way to idaho! haha. i dont want her to move back.. shes too cool man. too cool. but yeah her ex boyfrend josh is pretty cool, they make a cute couple. they belong together. he shouldnt be seein that lil bitch. missy tells me shes a whore, so i hate her. cuz i hate whores. i think when i get home, imma make some brownies. they sound really good. and while their cookin, i think imma re read some of the stuff in our english book, cuz yeah, i didnt really pay attention to chapter 2... and i should do that. maybe ill open my math packet too... yeah, i prolly will. it gets boring in north bend. alone. lonely. and alone. but meh, its better then being REALLY alone in covington. its scurry out there in the woods, esp having a faggot stalker that could stop by at n e given time. creepy. but yeah, i think imma cut this off. if i find more to say, ill come back, if not, ill write tmw or the next day or something. maybe this weekend. oh yeah, this weekends suppose to be dope! HALLOWEEN... oooo scarrrrrryyyy. NOT!
a.m dizzy bizzy... ugh try not
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omg... last night was crazy. me n missy went to portland to see her ex, josh, and his frend ryan. we didnt head home until 3am. we got back to tukwila at about 6, with 2 hours to sleep... good thing it was a half day. it was good times. me n the gurls went shopping after school, and then we went out to eat downtown. we went to a cocina. it was yummy. after that we were driving around odea, an all boys highschool, hehe. that was funny. anna turned up the music HELLA LOUD and people started looking out their classrooms. kinda embarassing the freaking 4th time around. i hid after that. it was funny. i will write later
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another october day has gone by. it was really cold today. i didnt like it. i was pretty warm. i think that if its gunna be cold, it should be FREAKIN COLD. like, snowy. i cant wait. when it snows, me n momma are calling in sick, and were gunna go snowboardin. joe, her bf, baught me a season pass to go WHENEVER i wanna all winter. exciting, huh? grr, today i went to go get myself some lunch and JITB, and my card didnt scan. i felt dumb. and poor. i think momma owes me some money n e ways. speakin of which, missy was talkin about going to portland sometime this upcoming week, cuz her ex will be there, and she wants to see him. soooo that means i could go shopping with out tax, yay. oooooo we were driving around this weekend, and my mom, joe and i were talkin to this couple about their lil civic hatchback for sale. it was 2,500 and it was red n so cute. it was a 4 speed. i kinda want a manual cuz it looks like fun. but then again, its jus one more thing to worry bout. so i dont know. right now ill take n e thing tho, it will help me wanna go get my license. so yeah, friday was the homecoming game, and i didnt go. woo. after hearing about how it went, im kinda glad i didnt go...we lost. kerry and jonathon won homecoming king n queen. i wanted anna to win. oh well, i voted for anna twice... i did my part, haha. and our float was disqualified, so that sucked too. so, yeah, my night wasnt wasted on that. instead of going, i went to northbend, and slept. then at like 10 we went to a movie, and came back home to sleep. the movie was freakin hilarious. it was "team america" with the puppets. haha. thats so great. their lil theme song was like "team america... fuck yeah... their here to save the mother fuckin day, yeah.." haha. i guess you had to be there. good times. then on saturday, me megan missy and charlotte didnt go to the dance, we hung out at missys, waited for some phone calls. then we went out. of course, like he had planed out before, we ended up at my house with 4 other guys. that was fun. i got soooo sober. lol. you dont even know. we didnt sleep all night. infact, it was 1030 when i went to sleep for more then an hour. then at like 8 i went to bed. at like 8, it felt like it was like 10 or 11. it was crazy. sunday went by so slow like that! well yeah, im begining to think i write too much in my entries, so yeah, imma go. i will write less from now on.
a.m dizzle
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yay, i finally get to update again! its friday night, and its the homecomin game. i decided not to go, cuz im too tired n stuff. im jus gunna go to sleep when i get done writing this. this week seemed really long. especially yesterday. yesterday it was "Saved By The Bell Day" for the senior class, which meant we all had to dress like a character from Saved By The Bell or something along those lines. we also had a pep assembly. durin the pep assembly, each class was asked to write and act out a skit that had to do with their theme. ours was.. obviously... saved by the bell. everyone had finished theirs, which included boys n gurls dancing with eachother, the sophs did one that had guys dancing, and gurls throwin money at them... and the juniors did one with a bunch of chicks dancin around a guy that was singing. when it finally got to ours, which had been planned out really well.. and worked on really hard like... we got about 5 minutes into it... with a laughing crowd, mr moed (principle) had to interupt it. there was a part of our skit that included 2 guys wanting to go to homecoming with eachother. the boys that were acting it out, werent touching in the slightest, they were talking about touching, and there were NO OFFENSIVE or even non-offensive jokes in there about homosexuals. mr moed insisted that it should be stopped becuz it was going "too far". by the time mr moed even opened his mouth to talk into the mic, the senior class had left. a few of us decided that we wanted to walk out. the rest followed. it was the greatest feeling. the whole senior class left the gym and went to the front of the room. some of the teachers were going "dont leave the gym, everyone back inside" and we jus told them to fuck off. haha it was so funny. we were screamin "fuck foster, fuck moed" it was hilarious. all of us went back to class tho. i wanted to go somewhere, and skip the rest of the day. its pretty messed up when its your senior year, and we get called out on. so anna and i were more pissed then most people (other then those who worked on the skit). so what we did was we went into a meeting with mr moed to talk about how offensive it was to interupt us, and 'censor' (cant spell) the gay rights. i guess fosters even got a gay club that got really mad, and told him that it was messed up the way he did all that, and they were more offended when mr moed cut us off, then with what they were acting out. ne ways, at the end of the day (after an hour long meeting) mr moed got on the intercom and in a way apologized for his actions, and wanted to thank the few of us that showed our concern and went to talk to him about it maturely. but yeah, that jus goes to show how DUMB foster really is. other then all that, this week has been pretty long. i guess it wasnt a very exciting week for me, cuz i decided not going to homecoming was a better idea, for money issuses or whatever. that and i didnt wanna go with the people that asked. n e ways. im in northbend on chris's puter while hes at work. he finally started work again, but this time its at arbys. he told them he only wanted part time, which is stupid if you ask me, cuz he needs as much money as he can get. but whatever. he keeps wantin a car and a license, and having a part time job, while doing nothing else isnt gunna get you there. but then again he talks about getting another job. so whatev, up to him. not my deal. i hope anna gets homecomin queen. i think she deserves it. but yeah, since all that stuff happened to our skit n everything, it made us DQed from homecomin week. which means our float is worthless. that bothers me.
im begining to think that im kinda missin out on the game n stuff. but im really really tired. like i said, this has been a long week, and even tho i was with one of my best frends all of last night, i didnt get much sleep. i think its cuz im nervous around him. i dont know how to act sometimes, cuz we havent talked this much n a long time. NOT A BAD THING, jus... different. i wanna get use to it. i missed him. n e ways. i think imma go get some sleep. maybe take some pills, my head hurts... or something. but yeah, ill update more later.
a.m dizzle
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[13 Oct 2004|05:37pm] |
(not the one i was looking for, but it works :-D)
Carolyn Dawn Johnson- Georgia
If I'm not over you, by the time I get to Georgia,
Then I guess I'll be Alabama bound,
There was a time when I'd do anything for ya,
But this time baby, I won't turn around.
I always wanted to get married, and I thought you were the one,
But you never, ever asked me and I was tired of hangin' on,
You know a girl can only be let down, so many times before she runs,
And now this little bitty town's only got room for one of us, yeah.
You always said I'd never leave, and if I did I wouldn't go far,
So I know how I must look with my tank o' gas and beat up heart,
Well, baby I'm gone for good, you can count on that,
I'm gonna keep headin' west 'til I'm too far gone to come back, yeah.
And if I'm not over you, by the time I get to Georgia,
Then I'll be Alabama bound,
There was a time when I'd do anything for ya,
But this time baby, oh, I won't turn around.
I only got ten miles to go, before I cross the state line,
I can feel my hands shaking, 'cause they usually turn the wheel around about this time,
I heard that same ol' voice inside, I had to drown it out,
So I found me a radio station playing something fast and I turned it up real loud.
There was a time when I'd do anything for ya,
But this time baby, oh, I won't turn around, yeah,
No I won't turn around,
If I'm not over you by the time I get to Georgia, then I'll head to Alabama,
Roll on to Mississippi, or maybe Louisiana,
I'll drive all the way to California,
Oh, I won't turn around,
No, I won't turn around,
No, I won't turn around,
No, I won't turn around.
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[13 Oct 2004|05:27pm] |
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today was really slow. it was sunny out, but i was freezing like all day. at like 2 we had out 05 picture to take. everyone got in the practice feild, and made an 0 and then a 5. it was awsome. me n megan were a wearing bright pink boa, so you can point us out real fast. hehe. i cant wait to graduate. its gunna be awesome going to college, and moving out. wow, im jus realizing i havent written in this in a while. the only reason i am today, is cuz theres a free puter, cuz chris is in the shower. but yeah, imma try to continue to write more, since my internet explorer jus like doesnt work on josephene, its hard to do on my own. i dont like it when people read what im writing from behind me. but yeah this friday is suppose to be awesome. its the football game, and ithink missy said that dan and brandon wanna go. their from puyallup, both are in college. but yeah their really cute. and then afterwards, i think me n the gurls are goin out to my place, and chillin. that will be fun. then on saturday night its homecoming. i dont know if imma go tho. if i do, im jus wearin a dress from a previous year. ill go buy one for prom but not homecoming. esp since i dont wanna go with n e one. haha. wow ive got a headache. i wonder why ive been getting this bad headaches. theyll jus come and go. and lately i been sleeping hella. like when i got to my moms work at 230, i fell asleep so fast, and didnt wake up till 5. shit, i could still sleep right now. but yeah i should go, i wanna get in pjs n stuff. imma write sometime soon. maybe if i go to my moms work more often after school, i can write there. i get a computer to myself almost everytime. so yeah. ill write later.
a.m dizzle
ps the oc starts november 4th... im so ready.
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i jus got to my moms work, and when i walked in her office, i saw an old baby picture of me sittin there. i have a teddy bear in my arms (i still have it today hehe) and my eyes are like sooooooooo blue. i wish they were that blue now. i like green eyes, but i think blue would be cool too. haha i love this pic. it makes me smile all the time. n e ways, i jus got outta school. it was pretty easy. i had a hard time sleepin the other night, so it was kinda hard to stay awake. in fact, i fell asleep in civics. that would only be becuz we were watching the debate between kerry and bush, and ide allready seen it. school jus seems all together weird now. i like it, and i get a lot of respect jus becuz imma senior, but its jus weird. i dont know. i wanna go to covington tonight. but when i get out there, theres nothing to do... and i can only watch so much tv and movies before i get bored. megan said if i went to covington she would come visit me. now that ive gotten so use to sharing a room with someone, its really hard to sleep alone. really hard. the last time i tried to sleep with out someone in the same room, i only slept for like an hour maybe 2. its irritating. i think i have issues, haha. if your thinkin about commenting on that,... please dont, lol i allready know i have issues. but yeah, that whole rule on no LJ before i do my homework went down the shitter. BUT im using my planner again! haha. todays the 4th. that means its my moms n her boyfrends anniversary. she didnt even remember till he called her on the way to work, and was like "happy anniversary!" and i was like... oh joy. she was all like "omg! i didnt even realize!" flippin out n stuff. haha. in english class were talking about utopias. for those who dont know what a utopia is, its a perfect world. we were asked to make a list of what our utopia would consist of. i think this is what mine would look like...
-everything is free for me, n the ones close to me (i know they wouldnt abuse the situation). AND theres enough to go around for all of us.
-no violence, or pain. for example: if someone hurts you intentionally, or even unintentionally... it doesnt effect you in the slightest.
-memories of only good things
-if someone doesnt like where they are at, they can think about something really hard, and they would end up there. haha that would be awesome.
-you were with the one(s) you loved 24/7 AND they loved you back
-and of course the 4 words... eternity, equality, fraternity, and liberty.
if that was the world, i would be such a happy camper. lol. but then again, thats my utopia, it might contridict what someone elses utopia would be, and then we would get distopia. bad things. haha. wow, n e ways enough about school. ooo! andrew was telling me about how he works in tukwila, and he gets off at 3 everyday, (graduated and he lives in eatonville, im not sure why he works in tukwila) n he wants to come get me from school this week. he says he misses me. aww. how sweet. that will be fun tho, cuz i havent seen him in like a month or something. but yeah, we dont have school on friday! im so happy. megan was talkin about us going to renton or something, i dont know. cuz im also suppose to go dress shopping with anna, kerry, amy, valerie, and a bunch of other gurls. ally said that mark was saying something about his frend yara (yadda) and tom might wanna go to our homecomin... so i might go with one of them. i me Tom at a party of mine, he has gorgeous green eyes. but i dont think hes gunna go... but then again i dont know whats going on. then on saturday kerry said there was a party, n she was inviting me... so i could go to that. then sunday i WILL do homework or get wasted with missy. or both. lol. missy jus found out that the guy she left in idaho (her boyfrend, but then exbf, cuz she was moving) slept with another gurl, and he had lied to her about it. they were together for a few months, and missy started falling in love with him, and thats not her style. she likes to keep it to a bare minimal amount of feeling. she doesnt like to be hurt. she was telling me that when she gets older, shell get married but right now, she wants to have fun. and i say amen to that. BUT then again, i like the feeling of knowing i can count on someone to always be there for me. i dont know. yeah i should go tho, i got homework to do. i can update later tonight, cuz i wont have much to do. im about to do my homework now. thats if chris lets me on the puter. hes mad at me.
byebye!
a.m dizzle
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[03 Oct 2004|05:07pm] |
And we wait above a road.
We're turning to go home.
And the silence from the side of the car,
Tells me everything and how we are.
Cause there's no more trying to make this so right.
Theres no more trying tonight.
And you know it's not so easy when you're all alone,
And I wonder if, I'm alone in your head.
I know something is wrong,
I just don't know what to do.
You say it's only me, and, that I'm so perfect for you.
I don't want to try no more,
I don't want to make this right.
I just want you to be true to me one time.
And you know it's not so easy when you're all alone,
And I wonder if I'm alone in your head.
Twelve days gone by, since I have saw you last,
I'll give this one more try,
I'll give it all my best, and, I'll ask
What could you be doing that is so much fun?
Without me by your side,
Without me by your side.
And, I will take a step back, and, I'll let you ahead,
And, I will take a step away, and, see if you come back,
Because there's no more trying to make this so right,
Theres no more trying,
Theres no more trying tonight.
We will never be the same,
We will never be the same,
We will never be the same,
We will never be the same,
Until you're done.
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[03 Oct 2004|04:52pm] |
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i stayed up till like 5 talkin to a frend. it was worth it too. we totally opened up and were able to talk about everything. n e ways, i woke up this mornin at like 12 and felt like i could sleep longer. i never did go back to sleep tho. i went downstairs and watched rugrats, haha i love that show. i miss it! i remember when i was younger, i use to watch it all the time. then i came back up stairs, saw that chris was up, so we hung out for a while. later we ate some nachos and watched fresh prince. another movie i havent seen n a while. my mom should be on her way right now, they went to work, and then costco. she got me n her bikes. were gunna go for a ride here in a while. its gunna be fun. ill ride more often if i have a bike to ride with. right now im watching a man of honor. its kinda distracting. so im going to go. i will update a lil later tonight, wehn i get back from my bike ride. byebye!!
a.m dizzle
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